If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the past two months, it would have to be the hard lesson of being content in the here and now. I’m the OG of FOMO (fear of missing out) , and I tend to look backwards in regret and also forwards in anticipation. It breeds anxiety in my life, like major anxiety, and it’s something that I dealt with even as a child.
I can’t say I’ve eliminated any of it, or some magic stardust floated down and *poof* I’m cured, but this whole thing has caused me to slow my roll. Gratitude like every single day. Even the days that feel like everything is combusting.
I love this sacred space we’ve created as a family and that’s growing in me these past 8 weeks. Its something that has been missing in me for quite awhile, and I’m finding it again. This time has gone by so quickly, and it’s definitely not ending super fast...but life must move forward. Bit by bit we will leave the bunkers and embrace each other and exclaim, “We made it! We are the lucky ones.” I can say that I’m walking into it all changed, and um, maybe a bit raw? Aren’t we all? Yea, I think we’re all just tender right now.
I hope my girls look back one day and say, “We weren’t scared, but we were safe so that others could be safe. We were on top of each other’s personal space, and we fought like every day, but we grew closer than ever in love and understanding. Family walks, and birds building nests on our porch, learning how to bake, and mom teaching us subtraction and the art of handwritten letters, are things we want to pass on to our own families. We learned a lot about how God provides, and how blessed we are. We miss those quarantine days. They made us.” 💗
Prayer:
Lord, in a world of vast unknowns please remind us what it feels like to slow down and be in Your presence. When we truly appreciate the moment, the day, the very hour that you have given us, it changes our perspective. Holy Spirit move us to gratitude. Shift our hearts from fear and anxiety, to peace and gratefulness. We love you. We are so thankful to have gotten another day here, with those we love.